Rest

I have spent the last two days reviewing some great blogs by Steve McVey about 101 lies you hear in church every Sunday. It really gave a voice to what I have been thinking and feeling about my own walk in Christ for so long, and the internal frustrations I have felt from the incongruence in my beliefs with what modern American churches preach today. It also helped me to recognize the lies I continue to feed myself, and the striving in my spirit that results from trying to hard to be "spiritual", to have a good "Christian walk" and to try, in my own efforts, to be more like Christ.
What I have come to realize is that there is no more striving, there is no need for goals to perfection, there is no more need to be good, and play a role that gets me nothing. I already have what I have been striving for. I have Christ. He is in me, He is perfection in me, and I no longer have to try to "find God's will" or fit a mold, or bear a burden that was not intended for me. It is called a GraceWalk. After reading all of this I laid on the couch and I rested, because suddenly a huge burden was lifted off of me, and none of it really matters anymore. I have Christ and that is enough. I never realized how tired I was until I entered His rest. He really is good news. The pressure is off, and I have rest, and I am at peace. It is a place I have longed to be for quite some time. I am the one who always seems to forget these simple profound truths.