The Blessings and Curses of Generations

I am planning on doing some reading and research on generational blessings and curses. It seems that so many factors in my life and in those around me are influenced by the generations before them. We act out of habits and wounds that we learned in the past. I act out of wounds and habits that I have learned in the past. I look at my precious 3 month old baby girl and it brings tears to my eyes to see how she loves, without baggage, without scars, without reservation! She is as she was created to be in the image of our beautiful Abba Father. Oh, Father, how I deeply DESIRE to love that way again! How I long to end the generations of wounds that were inflicted on me and in the generations before me so that my daughters will always love with a pure beautiful heart! We (myself included) will often act out our relationships in one of two ways. We (and I) will either repeat the same behaviors and wound those we love, or spin in the opposite direction and OVERCOMPENSATE for the mistakes and wounds that were inflicted on us. I see this happen time and time again, in my life and in so many of the people I interact with in my life journey. With my own family and my own children, I seek with all of my heart to end the generational wounds that I impart without knowing it. How many habits and the things that I do are a manifestation of SEVERAL generations on my life? And dear Jesus, I ask sincerely, how can I end these things and say finally, THIS WILL NOT CONTINUE TO THE NEXT GENERATION! Oh, the responsibility we have as parents! How great the calling as our children learn from EVERYTHING we do, right and wrong! Today, I had to stand and end some very negative things that were potentially going to influence my children and the way they see a very special person that they have grown to love. It breaks my heart to have to build a bigger fence around my precious daughters to influence my precious little ones and end the influence of a generational curse. The balance that I am continuing to pray for is this. To allow them to love and show grace in this world, yet protect them from evil choices. To see others as precious gifts, as God's beloved, but protect them from the terrible choices they make. I often lean on overprotection, and that is not always good. Dear God, please help me, as a mother to guide my precious daughters in the path you have for them, and to end the generational curses, that they may see the love and beauty You have for them. To nurture them, and not smother the life out of them. To see every thing that is allowed in their lives as an opportunity for growth, trusting, and KNOWING that you will make everything in their lives that was meant for evil and pain and turn it into beauty and goodness. Amen.